When Love Turns To Dust…

holding back those tears.

           Pain is all that was left. No trace of hope can be seen in her eyes, sanity almost wither and only anguish harbors inside her heart and mind. He was gone. No more shimmering light to guide her hands.

All hope is gone.

maybe...

           

…It all happened suddenly.

A dramatic turn of events...

In just a snap, fate broke them apart. He dumped her without any warning, saying that he had met a new one. She doesn’t want to say goodbye, but how, when all that she believed seems to be an utter lie.

How did this happen? Why? Where was love? Had Eros forsaken her, why? Dazed, she let confusion pile up in her mind.

            Sleepless nights, her eyes drench in sorrow, fleeing from sanity was her only remedy; all she wanted was to move on, but how? Where? How?

             When all that’s left, was fragment of broken vow, a disregarded promise and fogged eyes. She just wished that the pain would stop. But how, when each time she closes her eyes, memories of him clog her mind. Her reasoning abandoned somewhere in the heavens. Anchors of dilemma cast inside her heart, so conceited to deny the bitter-sweet truth of reality. He was gone, yet it’s him that she longs to see whenever she wakes up.

The harsh wind continues to blow them apart. Love sets down together with father sun; though unlike the latter, love won’t have a new dawn in her life, and just like love, pain was also a deathless god that will cling forever inside her shattered heart.

i guess...

Suddenly, all she that she had believed fades to black. He’s smiles are now the lit of her pain, the cause of her tears, the foundation of her suffering. Memories of him were a constant hurting.

She tried to stop him, to fight for him, but courage wasn’t on her side. Though love has the capability to tear down all walls, right now pride was far much superior. Pain and agony was always beside her, they will be her comrades for a long time. Silently, she wallows in her sufferings.

Longing for a cure, like a bird in the middle of a dessert, fooled by the mirage of fake smiles, she soars higher into the sky of hallucination. She rises towards her lamentation and pampers herself within the sea of clouds. Phony comfort was all she had. Knavish feelings soothe her sorrow, letting fraud lovers to heel her broken heart. How long must this apathy go on…how long.

She just wants to move on…

But how…

She can’t

Let go.

amen.